Numb

People in pain
My people
Why can’t I take it
away?
It can take them
away

My mind reeling
When will it
stop?
Everything is fine
Until it’s not
And then what?
Am I supposed to just
pretend that life is okay
even when it
most certainly is not?

Not able to write
Unable to do much
of anything
Numbness takes over
to block out the pain
But it comes back
in waves
when I least expect it
Sadness, anger, disbelief
Fear, worry, dread

That age-old question
surfaces
Why do bad things
happen to good people?
I wish I knew

Life is a series of
ups and downs
I know that
But the downs
shouldn’t be this bad,
right?

For now, I don’t know
what to do
what to say
how to act
But I can show them I love them
be a listening ear
love them through it
That’s all I can do
I hope it’s enough

 

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16 thoughts on “Numb

  1. mbush17

    I am so sorry for your experience and you and your family and friends are in my thoughts! All you can do is what you’re already doing. I am so sorry.

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  2. barbara suter

    Go with the grief…it’s real. Stay true to your friend, I know you will. You can’t change anything, you can only go through the experience with your loved ones. This, too, is part of the journey, painful as it is. Illness of a friend of relative affects everyone in their orbit. Wishing you and your friend strength in the days and weeks ahead.

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  3. Maureen

    Yes, show them the love. And continue to pour out your grief into writing – I hope this writing was cathartic. The poem is lovely. So sorry for your painful journey.

    Reply

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