Anyone who knows me or has read some of my posts this month knows I’ve been having a hard time lately. Lots of things beyond my control have been very frustrating and have consumed my life for the past few weeks. I haven’t liked who I’ve been lately. I’ve been extremely sad, irritable, and angry, and my usual social self has retreated from my friends. I was letting the situation control me. I was forgetting the advice my dad has always told me, “You can only control what you do. You can’t control what anyone else does.” And he’s right, but dammit, sometimes I just want to control everything and make it turn out the way I want it to!
Beginning Monday, the fog has started to lift. Each day I find myself happier and more like me. I am smiling more, laughing more, and connecting more. I am looking forward to tomorrow, rather than dreading it. I am finding the joy in life again, both at work and in my social life. My OLW for this year is intentional. To be honest, I haven’t been living intentionally lately; I’ve been living in reaction to the people and situations surrounding me. But that’s all beginning to change. I’m starting to own my intentionality again. I know that there are still going to be bumps along the way, but I’m going to be more intentional with my choices, leading to a happier, healthier me!
Thank you to everyone who has supported me during this time! I’ve received loads of love from friends, family, and the TWT community of writers. You guys make my heart happy! 🙂 So as I begin the business of getting back to the old me, I am looking forward to the adventures and fun that lie ahead. I’m excited to be traveling with this lady (and Heather!) in just a few short weeks! Bring on the sun!